8:26 AM ; Saturday, March 08, 2008
ABSOLUTELY DRIVING ME CRAZY.march holidays indeed. sheesh man, i see nothing but piles of homework and band and tuition and projects and STUDYING. i don't mean to be a whiner and all, but AHAHAHAHAHHHHH.
everyone still thinks i can't make it(despite my age) but i'm going to have to at the rate i'm going. by golly someone save me. a bad scene that occured this week keeps replaying my mind.
mrs tan: (by the end of dialouge session) you're going to work very much harder
me: *silently* GAAHH. oh no i'm cooked, bolied, grilled, satueed and fried in the hottest tom yum soup in the world.
let's throw in a plus factor. i haven't been doing my one hour a day prayer at all, and with all this talk about the end daysreally isn't helping.
i know i'm much better off than many kids in the world, and i told myself i'll keep that in mind. i mean, kids in China (god bless them) and STF work their butts off and mantian a smile all the time. they hunger for knowledge. is that something so hard to do, i ask myself.
i admit i never will be as intelligent as tessa tan or as nimble as wai han or be the the most talented of the lot. but if hard work has its results, i have no choice but to try. i'm sorry if i've never been up to standard for anything that i do in all my roles as a friend, student, sister and so forth, but even when i'm given a talent, i'll reproduce another out of it.
i'm out of my mind, kindly leave a message