2:08 AM ; Sunday, September 02, 2007
hello!
wow, what an eventful week!first, MY ANGEL AND MORTAL WOTE TO ME. and my angel is so sweet! i shall tell you why in number 2.
2. i had hyperventilation during band. after doing hentak i got kinda breathless and satrted crying. hui jun actually thought i had depression thoughts and asthma at first! then the red cross girls came running to help. i think they were actually so sacred that i would faint or something! any way, hui jun also helped me through encouraging me that God is with me and all. it was really sweet of everyone, including my sexy section members helping me along the way ^-^ even my angel wrote an extra letter to ask if i was ok! i am so touched!!
3. aiya, i shan't mention what really happened, but it's just that i don't really feel i can take the responsibility everyone thought i could handle. ahh. i'm scared. i mean, reaching school at 6.50?! man! i leave at that time usually! still, rest assured i'll try my best to help everyone. sorry if i make mistakes, it's who i really am.
4. I GOT A COOL NEW COMPUTER. it's really nice to use, trust me! the screen is nice and big, which i will use to catch up with my anime after my exams. the keyboard is just paradise to lay your fingers on to type. and good news! the law of ueki and gakuen alice is on sale in singapore! all in chinese though, they can be found in kinokuniya. AND KINGDOM HEARTS TWO IS OUT. SUPER SEXY. IN ENGLISH!!
5. going back to ngee ann was a disappointment.maybe it's just me, but i seem to have evaporated from everyone's memory there. i suddenly realised that i was nicely sandwiched between the past and the present. let the past go. the past was fun, but i don't miss it anymore. i still love the life i once had, but there are many more things for me to fill my life with. everyone's changed, and i respect that. i myself have changed too, i'm not sure whether it's for the better or for the worse, but i have certainly changed. everyone in sixone has changed, everyone with no exception, even the teachers.
5.a as much as it concerns me, i still do feel i have many areas i can improve myself on. so i won't throw away my past, no matter what happens. the past is what determines me now, so i will learn, not forget. another thring i realised that was disrupting the social world were mean girls. i mean nowadays people have abandoned the kampong spirit of helping each other and simply bite each other for no reason. in hollywood especially, i learnt from the e! programme about mean girls who ruin each other. what i feel is that : whatever that involves you may not necesscary concern you. sure, you get upset. however, the one who really suffers is not you, but them. so first examine your character. if literally about 2 levels hate you and your family can get annoyed at certain faults of yours, you do need to change. it hurts, but the truth will help. still, most of the time it's just the other parties' fault. in that case, leave them alone. don't touch their blogs where all the bad things spout out or despreately find out what they say about you. even if someone says " do you know what that girl is saying about you?" just trun down the information, if it's going to make you unhappy and drains you, what's the point? the pandora's box is always better left unopened, and ignorance can be bliss.
p.s hi jiaxuan! hi everyone! XD
