6:03 AM ; Monday, May 28, 2007
ok i think i would just make this post a short one. I FEEL HONSETLY LOUSY IN MY SAXOPHONE PLAYING. like at home, i squeaked and went out of tune no matter how much that reed of mine was adjusted. i sounded airy and salivary. it was an AWFUL tone.and this may sound funny, but i don't want the holidays to end. ok, not holidays. the not going to school period of time. as in i have absolutely no interest in facing the teachers. no, its not that i don't like them. i just cannot pay attention. my mind wanders to plots of scandal and emotion laced fancifully with fantasies of magic before i realise i am actually dreaming. no, seriously. during encounter i found myself sleeping while standing to pray. you can imagine. i also slept through half of the sermon later. naturally, i mentally wounded myself very badly for all of that. I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO. i actually am becoming very scared of myself now. oops, that came out a bit too random. but please bear with me. as in, i am changing so fast my brain is still digesting the fact i don't have a best friend after half a year. you'll see why:1. the past brenda will NEVER starve herself for recess and breakfast and feel full after some
terrible growls from the Big Flabby Disgrace Of Brenda(nicknamed tofu, the stomach)
2. the past brenda will never take up the job of a leader even if it meant giving the offer of fresh, tender steaming and rich tutu.
3. the past brenda never liked the pussy cat dolls. or listening to hip hop for that matter. relax, i still listen to my usual mix of oldies, broadway and asian music. OH, AND DISNEY TOO.
4. the past brenda will not be lazy at home.at least i tried. look what im doing now. but oh well, im waiting for mother reporting from europe to come online all the same.
5. the past brenda was not as horrible as i am now. not that i can help it that much. there's a limit to my paitence and endurance too. but i would have slapped myself if 2006 brenda meets 2007 brenda.
6. the past brenda never swore this much. now everything to me is 'damn' or 'shit'.
7. the past brenda will ALWAYS fall for those love ballads.you know, dance in the moonlight with me senorita, blah. (i actually like the song senorita) now i fall for those songs about stars and past memories. the ending theme of naruto shippuden is the best. oh, and put your head on my shoulder is comical to me. thanks to the sexy(saxy) seniors.
8.the past brenda never blogs often. lets see what's happening now.
9.the past brenda never criticised so much publicy. to jolene *boobylene!, however, is a different matter.
10. the past brenda never cared what she threw on to cover herself. now i take much care.oh what a bimbo i am.
p.s any more discovered differences you can report to me. applies to only those who knew me before janurary 15 2007.
